Hey guys.
I just wanted to get this out because it's been bothering me quite a bit lately.
background info:
I've been in this relationship for a while now, but right from the beginning there were a bunch of red flags I should have taken notice of. Signs of abuse, neglect, whatever you want to call it. Things that left scars that I didn't have the time or the resources to deal with properly, so I just went along with it and hoped that one day I'd be able to accept things for what they are. I tried to take the attitude that "ignorance is bliss" but all that did was cause more problems for me.
I spent way too long trying to figure out ways to make things better, but no matter what I did I always ran into new problems. It's like I would fix one thing and then three other things would go wrong. I had to deal with a lot of bi-polarity. i really did try to make the best of things with the resources I had on hand but no matter what I did things only got worse.
For a while things settled down and it seemed like everything was going to be ok. I had dealt with and fixed all of the past issues in the relationship that I knew about. A few months went by and I stared to let myself get attached again but then one day something small came up and it pushed me over the edge. i realized that I just didn't want to deal with any of the bull**** anymore and that I shouldn't have settled for less than what I deserved in the first place.
I thought long and hard about the decision I had to make and I've decided to do what's best for me. Tomorrow morning I'm breaking it off. Cutting all ties completely, and I'm never even going to think about this mistake again. I'm throwing up the deuces like Chris Brown and going on to the next one like Jay -Z.
No more of this crap for me. I'm taking a stand for myself.
Tomorrow morning it's all over. I'm driving up to the bank and transferring the title of my Cobalt SS to the new owner, taking my money and never looking back.